HOLLOW

Last night, I cried again. Couldn't sleep for the past two weeks. Felt so helpless with myself.. I sought solace from my sister in Oz. I cried louder when I read every of her sms replies.

Menses came again. It's barely two weeks since it stopped. Cramps are troubling me, it's much worse than before.

I dunno what's happening to me.

Just had a talk with him on the phone. It has been three weeks since I heard his voice. We TALKED. But it was depressing. And I sobbed. I hate to cry, especially in front of him. Tears, is regarded as a sign of weakness. I dun like to show them to gain sympathy. But still, I wept. Sadness is something you can't control, it breeds, it shadows you, it lives in you..as long as you invite it into your soul.

My world, at this very moment, is crumbling. I'm suffering from depression and I dunno which causes it.

Wish I'm mad. Lunatics enjoy a warped world much better than mine.