RIGHT ABOUT NOW

So much things had happened in the month of April. In late March I received a rude shock from Cliff that he wanted to give up his current life in KL to pursue studies in KK, as a trade-off between father and son - stay in KK to keep his parents company in return to get his debts cleared. We had late night talks over the phone: tears, harsh words, stoned silence and awkward warmth were displayed out like poker cards. Just when I was emotionally drained, Cliff's company called back to offer me a job position. That created more chaos because at that moment, Cliff was still in David's position - the thinker, trying to weigh the pros and cons of his abrupt decision. After all the swirls, twirls, turns, twists, bumps and watever-ever, he decided to stay on and face the money-music.. whereas I readily agreed to join the company. Both of us are to make sure that his debts will be cleared all by himself by opting for fixed instalments and saving a sum of money on a monthly basis is a slash-throat-MUST.

Then in mid-April I started to organize my arrangements and plannings for the relocation. It ain't easy, for I have to allocate a certain amount of savings for family, insurance, etc; procedures to transport Tiger to KL; important tasks to do, stuff buy and bring to KL; contract-signing in KL; handover duties at work and at home, pack pack pack and ETC ETC, all these to be done within a month. It was mad rush and, it still is!
Well, one big breather though. 29th April was my last working day in the company. I swear, I have never slogged so much for a week, just to hand-over all my duties to my colleagues. Documentations-one after another, clearing mails, packing personal belongings, asset checking, software un-installations, briefings & meetings, lunches with bosses and concerned colleagues... It felt as though the most noteworthy point in my five working years is only this particular week. Black comedy, eh?
The ironic part was that as much as I dissed the people there, hated the unchallenging work, I had an unbearable feeling of sadness when I was leaving my office for the one last time. I kept looking back at my cubicle, my workstation, my server, the clusters, the whole environment till I couldn't see straight anymore. I was trying to take everything into my memory so I can enjoy strong and vivid flashbacks whenever I start dwelling on my ex-company. After dropping off my staff card and room key, the heart almost tore out by itself. I will not be able to access my room anymore... and that spells the end of my relationship with the company. Somehow, I never go easy on partings.

I will be tying up loose ends for the whole of next week, days+nights of packing and loads of followups. And right after that, it's a new life in another country. Hmm, I really dunno what and how to expect, dunno what to foresee, have so much to worry, no time to think in peace and yet I still have so many things to settle before going over...

"if you always do what you always did, you will always get what you always got. it's important to move on."