SILENCE

I always thought coming to KL solves every issues I have with him.

That was what I had thought.

Reality bites.

Maybe I was expecting too much, maybe he isn't doing it right, maybe we never want to compromise, but one thing is definite: Communication breakdown.

Throughout the 5-6 years in this relationship, communication remains a constant barrier between us. Now that I'm here, it becomes more and more apparent.

Everyday I will wish I can go back to Singapore, leading my old life.. even though it's a meaningless one. And everyday I will think about the past and the present.. and I realize there isn't any difference; back to Singapore or living here.. loneliness stays with me no matter where I go. After mincing all these thoughts, depression sinks in.

Nowhere to go, nothing to look forward to.

Everything in limbo.

BLEAK

It's been a month since I started my life in KL.
Frankly, I hate it here.

Pollution, bad traffic, rude people, stupid colleagues.. sum everything up.
And what's worse? I have no friends.

There are a lot of things I observed and witnessed and I dun like what I had seen.

I feel lonely; friends are not MY friends. They refer me as Clifford's girlfriend.

There's a part of me being hidden and that, is the real me.
Life over here starts to take shape, I start to become another person too.

I dun like it.