This is perhaps the hardest post I've ever written. How do we describe ourselves in solid state since the world changes people everyday?
Hence I will only jot down those that are based on my illusion of me, myself.
First of all, if you're reading my blog to learn good English, DON'T.
Secondly if you read to check for grammars and typos, GO AHEAD.
Last but very least, if you're reading out of boredom, THANK YOU.
This blog exists because:
- Act as a decoy in office;
- To divert my obsession in online shopping;
- I can't stand my handwriting;
- To rant, rant, rant.
Persona
- I am not nice but I'm very kind.
- I don't know why, I am incapable of bonding with the same sex in friendships. Most women dislike me.
- I am fierce by nature - genetic issue.
- A lot of people mark my bluntness and sarcasm as my downfall but really, I'm just being honest with a sense of humor.
- I am a leftie and free-thinker.
- I am a shy person, it's true. If I'm quiet with a group of people, I am worried people will turn their attention to me. If I start to engage in conversations in a large group, I am actually trying to fit in without appearing pathetic.
- I can't sew for nuts, not even tying the end knot.
- I also can't identify countries by their land sizes and locations from the world map. I'm a geography idiot.
- I am equally tone-deaf and not able to understand musical notes for years. But I love music all the same.
- I am a self-proclaimed animal lover except for reptiles and creepy crawlies.
- I have scoliodentosaurophobia.
- I have sharp and accurate instincts; been proven over the years.
- I used to be loud but have significantly quiet down over the years. The hell days are over.
- I cannot translate my thoughts verbally. Hence I choose to write.
- I am vulgar but I know when to place my manners at the right time, right place.
- I am a critic, everyone is but I was told mine needs therapy.
- They say I'm crazy and weird, I am just half bucket to their brims.
- My passions usually last for a while, so nothing concrete can be written for keepsake.
- I am fickle and neurotic - this combination makes up a statue of unpredictability.
- I am diplomatic, I don't force my opinions into public acceptance unless I have PMS.
- I am by nature a lazy person. I pick food that requires little effort and do not like to wake up early.
- I am quite vain but since I'm lazy I don't put in 100% effort to look gorgeous. For example, I will never use fake eyelashes because the whole process of putting and taking them off is just too much of a hassle.
- I have hair that can be counted, say, in within 3 hours? - genetic issue.
- Basically, I am always half-bucket in things I do. Perfection is overbearing.
Loves & Hates
- I love my moles, yes that's right, those on my face. They are the constellations I ever own.
- I love my family, although I bitch about them once every few days.
- I love my cats but I know my love is misunderstood.
- I love BAGS and am very fussy about it.
- I love horror movies. But I'm afraid of the ghost that appeared in my dreams.
- I love to travel but the farthest I ever been is Korea.
- I hate stupid people. I'm quite a moron so I can't stand people who are dumber than me.
- I hate bags that come with back compartments.
- I hate pork meat but I love the spare parts, namely intestines and stomach.
- I hate hypocrites and liars. You can be obliging but please don't be a faker. It's different.
Impossible-to-kick Habits
- Two satchets of Nescafe instant coffee every morning.
- Over-eat and over-drink.
- Picking on my toe nails.
- Being bitchy.
- Spilling out secrets intentionally to catch reactions (i know, very evil)
- Forgetting to call back and keeping in touch with family, friends (usually too lazy to do it too)
- Irritate Clifford with neurotic remarks.
Stuff I Believe in
- My father taught me that being alone doesn't always mean you're lonely.
- My mother brought me up believing we are our own heroes, limelights are optional.
- My eldest sister inspires me to work hard during teenage years so that we can slack in later years.
- My second sister leads me to appreciate arts, to read more and write often.
- My third sister boosts my kindness to no ends and brings my tolerance threshold to higher level.
- Procrastination is a virtue - we sit back to see how the world unfolds like a blooming rose.
- Karma is real - I was bitten few times to know better.
- Santa Claus does exists.
- Ghosts, Gods, Hell, Heaven exist. Can't explain how & why, I just want to play safe.
- Friendships are only as good as it gets - they don't last.
- Love and hate co-exist together. You can't hate without loving them at the same time, or, before thereafter.