SILENCE
I always thought coming to KL solves every issues I have with him.
That was what I had thought.
Reality bites.
Maybe I was expecting too much, maybe he isn't doing it right, maybe we never want to compromise, but one thing is definite: Communication breakdown.
Throughout the 5-6 years in this relationship, communication remains a constant barrier between us. Now that I'm here, it becomes more and more apparent.
Everyday I will wish I can go back to Singapore, leading my old life.. even though it's a meaningless one. And everyday I will think about the past and the present.. and I realize there isn't any difference; back to Singapore or living here.. loneliness stays with me no matter where I go. After mincing all these thoughts, depression sinks in.
Nowhere to go, nothing to look forward to.
Everything in limbo.